Friday, July 30, 2010
I have dreamed for the past two nights that I am going to die while in the hospital after I have the surgery. I know its just my mind living out my fears in my dreams but it still scares me. Some other things that go threw my mind are things that I should not even think about, because its part of what got me to the terrible condition I am in today, but I will never be able to have bread/carbs again, or so I was told in the support group meetings, have not met the dietician yet, so this is still hearsay until the dietician tells me for certain. I can do without sweets, I have splenda, I can do without soda, I have for months, that stuff does not bother me, but the thoughts of never having another piece of lite bread scares me, lol. I love bread, but from what I hear if you eat it after the surgery it makes you violently ill to your stomach, and I have a very sensitive stomach now,I can not even imagine it after the surgery. Stuff like that really worries me, I am afraid of blood clots, which is the number 1 complication after the surgery, and of all the other risks, but that's only natural, anyone will fear the unknown. I just have to stay strong, think positive, and move forward!!!
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